goodnight my lovely followers
Don’t tell me how to live my life!
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Waits
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I just spent the past hour completely rearranging my room because I’m too stressed to sleep after my surprise visit from the dean.
Now my mattress is on the floor underneath my bedframe and everything is all closed off and cocoon-like and for the first time since then I feel a little bit safer.
Also my computer is no longer in danger of falling off the bed, and I’m literally right next to the power outlet. Really, this is an ideal situation other than the fact that everything that used to be under my bed is in the middle of the room. Eh. I’ll fix that later.
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Ashley Benson - Festival Bandeau in Napa (May 11, 2013)
NO I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT HOW SHE WAS RIGHT NEARBY AND I HAD NO WAY OF SEEING HER AND PROVING THAT WE COULD BE FRIENDS WHO DO FRIEND THINGS TOGETHER
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Lord help me
omfg
i’m dying
I SCROLLED WITH THE AUDIO POST AND OH MY GOD SOMEONE SEND HELP
OH GOD
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“This gorgeous Hälssen & Lyon calendar is made of brewable tea. Each day is made of fine pressed wafer thin tea leaves.”
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how not to be an adult
on your eighteenth birthday you write a somewhat pretentious but overall harmless blog entry about the meaninglessness of ideas like adolescence and adulthood
on your nineteenth birthday you make a mix cd for yourself entitled “who cares”
on your twentieth birthday you go out to eat with your family and you wish you were turning twenty one so that you could order a giant margarita in order to forget that you are here
on your twenty-first birthday you buy a bottle of wine and get drunk alone in your room and it is the very last time that something like that feels rebellious and not entirely depressing
on your twenty-second birthday you are one week sober and at dinner with family wishing you were drunk in a strange reenactment of your twentieth birthday
on your twenty-third birthday you go back to your hometown and get stoned with some old friends and you don’t tell them that it is your birthday because you want everything to be normal
on your twenty-fourth birthday you don’t do anything at all
on your twenty-fifth birthday you decide that you’re too old to still refer to yourself as a “boy” and to pretend to enjoy art films about morose twenty-somethings in new york city wandering from place to place and you think this might be progress
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I took a 7 week coast to coast road trip after being laid off from Boeing. I didn’t have a camper but realized that being able to pull off the road at a rest or truck stop was the way to go to make the trip affordable. With a few sheets of 1/2” plywood and misc. hardware this is what I came up with. The effort was well worth the time and materials.
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25 Things To Do Before You’re 25
1. Make peace with your parents. Whether you finally recognize that they actually have your best interests in mind or you forgive them for being flawed human beings, you can’t happily enter adulthood with that familial brand of resentment.
2. Kiss someone you think is out of your league; kiss models and med students and entrepreneurs with part-time lives in Dubai and don’t worry about if they’re going to call you afterward.
3. Minimize your passivity.
4. Work a service job to gain some understanding of how tipping works, how to keep your cool around assholes, how a few kind words can change someone’s day.
5. Recognize freedom as a 5:30 a.m. trip to the diner with a bunch of strangers you’ve just met.
6. Try not to beat yourself up over having obtained a ‘useless’ Bachelor’s Degree. Debt is hell, and things didn’t pan out quite like you expected, but you did get to go to college, and having a degree isn’t the worst thing in the world to have. We will figure this mess out, I think, probably; the point is you’re not worth less just because there hasn’t been an immediate pay off for going to school. Be patient, work with what you have, and remember that a lot of us are in this together.
7. If you’re employed in any capacity, open a savings account. You never know when you might be unemployed or in desperate need of getting away for a few days. Even $10 a week is $520 more a year than you would’ve had otherwise.
8. Make a habit of going outside, enjoying the light, relearning your friends, forgetting the internet.
9. Go on a 4-day, brunch-fueled bender.
10. Start a relationship with your crush by telling them that you want them. Directly. Like, look them in the face and say it to them. Say, I want you. I want to be with you.
11. Learn to say ‘no’ — to yourself. Don’t keep wearing high heels if you hate them; don’t keep smoking if you’re disgusted by the way you smell the morning after; stop wasting entire days on your couch if you’re going to complain about missing the sun.
12. Take time to revisit the places that made you who you are: the apartment you grew up in, your middle school, your hometown. These places may or may not be here forever; you definitely won’t be.
13. Find a hobby that makes being alone feel lovely and empowering and like something to look forward to.
14. Think you know yourself until you meet someone better than you.
15. Forget who you are, what your priorities are, and how a person should be.
16. Identify your fears and instead of letting them dictate your every move, find and talk to people who have overcome them. Don’t settle for experiencing .000002% of what the world has to offer because you’re afraid of getting on a plane.
17. Make a habit of cleaning up and letting go. Just because it fit at one point doesn’t mean you need to keep it forever — whether ‘it’ is your favorite pair of pants or your ex.
18. Stop hating yourself.
19. Go out and watch that movie, read that book, listen to that band you already lied about watching, reading, listening to.
20. Take advantage of health insurance while you have it.
21. Make a habit of telling people how you feel, whether it means writing a gushing fan-girl email to someone whose work you love or telling your boss why you deserve a raise.
22. Date someone who says, “I love you” first.
23. Leave the country under the premise of “finding yourself.” This will be unsuccessful. Places do not change people. Instead, do a lot of solo drinking, read a lot of books, have sex in dirty hostels, and come home when you start to miss it.
24. Suck it up and buy a Macbook Pro.
25. Quit that job that’s making you miserable, end the relationship that makes you act like a lunatic, lose the friend whose sole purpose in life is making you feel like you’re perpetually on the verge of vomiting. You’re young, you’re resilient, there are other jobs and relationships and friends if you’re patient and open.
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As a broke female college student, this is what I’m thinking as I look at my -3 dollar over drafted bank account.
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» Hyperbole and a Half: Adventures in Depression
Also here’s part one for those of you who haven’t seen it before.
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» Hyperbole and a Half: Depression Part Two
This is one of the best depictions of depression I’ve ever seen. Allie Brosh is one of my favorite writers anyway, and she manages to write/illustrate mental illness in a beautifully sad way. Please go read this.
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Well I’ve finally determined the cause of my unexplainable endless fatigue and other odd symptoms this quarter.
I’ve contracted a tick-borne illness. GREAT.
Hopefully I can recover before I fail all of my classes entirely.
